Change

Today I took the Love Languages Test (http://www.afo.net/hftw-lovetest.asp) assuming I would know the outcome. Of course I'd get 12 points in Physical Touch and nothing in any other category. All my life I have felt most loved when I am touched. Holding hands has been the most romantic thing to me. Even my girlfriends and I would walk arm in arm or hug often. My sister and I shared this love language and enjoyed sharing a bed or sleeping together on the couch growing up. When I'm on the brink of tears the quickest way to make them fall is not to tell me you love me or speak with me privately it has always been to hug me. But lately things have been changing. I have felt myself becoming such a different person. I used to be very emotional when it came to books and movies. I cried in just about every chick flick. Now I can't even remember the last time I cried over something fictional. Even in my relationships I'm finding myself to be much more "thick skinned". I'm often annoyed at overly sensitive people and even though I have my heart strings tugged, my tear ducts seem to have been disconnected. However, one thing remains the same. When my sister hurts my feelings I feel like I could just explode, and that's because she is the one person in this world I care about the most. I guess this can be a good thing. I used to be so overly emotional and prayed I would toughen up. I guess it just surprised me when I noticed it. I'm also not nearly as romantic as I used to be. I'd rather just watch a movie with Crockett than go out. Also I find I enjoy our conversation more than I do him holding me. It's not to say I don't enjoy being held, it's just not what holds me together anymore. I feel like I'm sort of becoming my own person. It's so new. I don't need someone else to touch me or hold me because I'm indepedent and I got this. I was so needy before and now I'm coming into my own. Ironicaly I thought I did that years ago. Guess we never stop growing and maturing.
So back to that test I took... these were my resluts: (the highest is 12 points in a category)
9- Acts of Service
8- Quality Time
7- Words of Affirmation
3- Receiving Gifts
3- Physical Touch
Go figure! It does make sense when I think about it. When Crockett helps me with the dishes or makes me chocolate milk I feel so cherished. I love feeling taken care of. Looking at all this has also made me realize what an amazing man I'm marrying. He excels at all of these catagories. When I'm stressed he helps me with my to do list. He does laundry, dishes, heavy lifting, packing. He's such a doer and not a watcher. He also takes me out on dates and stops at Red Box on our way to the store and says let's rent a movie tonight, just us, you pick. :)He tells me every day he loves me and how beautiful I am. He spoils me rotten with gifts. (Mostly food!) And his favorite way to show me he loves me is with back massages. I couldn't ask for a more well rounded lover. He loves in every way. I am so blessed.
I guess these changes are just part of life and I need to embrace them. Thank you Lord for answering prayer and shaping me into the woman you want me to be. All of my life I make an offering!