Jesus, sisters, and sushi

Tonight I had some great conversation with some beautiful girls while eating delicious sushi. I tried the crunch roll tonight and it was better than the california roll! I ate it all. :) But even better was the time to talk with some girls who I love. They made me laugh. And they made my heart so happy. It's nights like tonight where I get to see the light at the end of the tunnel. God is good and although he asks me to walk through experiences that are challenging I can always trust in him to come through on his promise. I love Jesus. I love my plegde sisters. and I love sushi.

The most wonderful time of year

It's officially Fall! (Or Autumn, whichever you prefer. I personally prefer Autumn.) The weather hasn't quite gotten the memo yet, but the calendar has not failed us! Sept. 22 marked the first day of Fall. :) I am so excited. I pulled out the pumpkin decorations and filled the jar with candy corn and little pumpkins. Every year I wait until September so I can buy those delicious little pumpkins and every year I make myself sick eating them. This year I vow to enjoy them in moderation. Crockett and I are going to decorate our family pumpkins soon. We get to add one more this year! Diego the cat will have the tiniest pumpkin. I am so excited! I wanted to get them today, but husband said no. I am anxious for the cooler weather so I can wear jeans and sweaters again. Hmmm... this reminds me, I may need to update my Fall 2010 wardrobe. ;) Fall always makes me homesick. I can almost taste Thanksgiving!!

My favorite thing about Fall.

The journey to become one of them.

Update on the secrets: It's going much better! I'm still under a lot of stress and I'm starting to feel really tired, but I'm feeling a lot better. I haven't worked much lately, but Crockett is applying at Texas Motor Speedway! I have a lot of homework and my tummy has started to get upset due to stress and not eating well, but I'm meeting lots of great girls! I miss my husband and my house is a mess, but I think it will al be worth it when these 5 weeks are over.

Secrets

I hate secrets. They hurt people. Always. No matter what. And right now I'm having to keep a lot of them. From my family, my friends, my husband, my sister, & even my mom. I HATE this. For one I do not like being told what to do in a non work/school situation. So I'm having a really hard time with people telling me, "Here's what you're gunna do. We don't care that you don't want to do it. Here's where you're going to be and what you're going to look like. And on top of all this, don't tell anyone what we've told you." I'm having an especially hard time balancing this with my husband. Just 4 weeks ago I vowed to become one with him. How can one being not share the same knowledge? How can one being hide secrets from itself? I'm so incredibly confused and really emotionally overwhelmed. My sister and my mom are my best friends and it's going to be impossible not sharing details of my life with them. I want to live my life the way I want. I want to be able to share my stories with my friends. I'm really unsure about what I should do at this point and I'm not even sure I have a choice anymore. I don't feel like I can be myself. I don't feel like I can trust people. I hate this feeling. :( I wanna go back to Disney World.